I love him, from the instant I set eyes on him when I was just 11 years old I have loved him and nothing will ever change that, he owns me, he owns my heart and he owns my body and no matter how many lies are told, no matter how many people conspire to keep us apart, despite the fame and the distance, we will find a way.
“Georgia Rae, when we made love you used to cry” … He waits for me to sing my bit. I try to swallow down a sob but I just end up singing through it…
“I said I love you like the stars above, I’ll love you till I die”
Carnage is an edgy coming of age love story that breaks all the rules and transcends the decades. Georgia and Sean’s story will stay with you long after you read the final word.
An emotional, smoking hot, gut wrenching read.
NOTE: This is part #1 of a 2 part story but can be read as a stand alone.
Hands down- This is one of the most twisted reads I´ve read in years! What a complete emotional clusterfuck.
It´s sex, drugs, rock ´n roll & relationships on a neverending rollercoaster ride. A trainwreck that repeats itself over and over again. You want to look away but you can´t. You don´t want to look away, either. You don´t want to witness the characters devastating moments but you have to! You want to interfere and help but it´s impossible.
Be prepared. Due to the language, graphic scenes etc. etc. etc. this might not be for a younger audience. If you´re under age then please go away now.
We meet a young Georgia Rae in the early 80´s and watch her grow with the years. She falls in love with Sean pretty young, loves the soon-to-be mega rockstar hard ( too hard ), and from there on Georgia´s life is one huge mess. A mess no one can fix.
And just when you think life couldn´t suck anymore for the poor girl, something more earth shattering happens. ( I´m saying girl / young woman because that´s basically what she is throughout the majority of the story )
Now, after having finished the story I can truly say I´m an absolute wreck. Even more of a wreck than I was after reading the After series by Anna Todd and that had me thinking for days ( Not that I´m comparing After with Carnage. I´m definitely not.). I really thought there was nothing that could top the mess that book created. `Carnage` definitely pulls the rug from beneath your feet.
`Carnage` is one of those stories where you constantly hold your breath because you just know the author isn´t out for her characters to live happy, fulfilled lives ( I´m dead serious. Only a few characters were able to breathe in peace in this story). I kept wishing, hoping, yes, even praying that the characters would have some happy moment in their lives and at one point they do.
But will it last?
Despite this being sort of a tragic / self-destructive romance I thought it was pretty brilliant. I loved how the author went for a different decade. As a child from that time myself, I got excited everytime details were mentioned ( such as, clothes, hairstyles, cars, etc. ). It was like travelling back in time ( minus the drug use, of course. I was a tad too young for that ). * sigh *
When you get yourself involved with a rockband you won´t get hearts and flowers around the clock. You get gossip, heartbreak ( even if it´s slightly unhealthy…okay okay, who am I kidding- The heartbreak was a disaster! She needed therapy. I need therapy! ), the wrong kind of protection, fake friends, etc. It´s not really pretty.
Never have I seen a romantic relationship like Georgia and Seans before. It was just…wow. Talk about loving someone for life! You love with Sean and Georgia. You suffer with them. Their worries become yours and their happiness makes you want to hug the world.
I refuse to talk about the end. Nope. Won´t go there. All you need to know is that you´ll need a truck supply of kleenex because shit hit´s the fan. You don´t see it coming. Like….at all. When I realized what had happened the waterworks started and wouldn´t stop.
Since this is kind of a „love or hate“ story I wouldn´t necessarily recommend `Carnage`to the world. For readers who love a good wild story with lots of WTH & OMG moments then you´ll enjoy this one. For others who are looking for romances with sappy, clean cut endings..you won´t find it here.
The Cover – 3 stars ( Not really my cup of tea. If I´m honest-I would never have given this book a chance if my friend hasn´t pushed me to read it. )
The Story – 5 stars ( A brilliant mess. Young love, fame, gossip, relationship crisis, self-destruction, love, heartache, drugs, kids, family, life… the author did a great job. LOVE)
The Characters – 5 stars ( * nod * Oh yeah, there was some major loving from my end. They were fantastic. )
My emotional state after finishing this read – far beyond emotionally drained. I cried, cried more and in the end I didn´t recognize myself anymore.
Despite me not liking the cover I´m still giving `Carnage` by Lesley Jones 5 out of 5 stars!
To purchase this book all you need to do is click here and begin to suffer.